Get Busy Living, or Get Busy Crying

"If you are going through hell, just keep going" - Walt Disney

Monday(19th Feb)
Went to Uni with a fresh mind and a new resolve. I was determined to work hard on my project and to finish as much as I can in this week. Only 4 weeks left. I had lots to do. Started working in the lab at 9.30 am and went on till 3.30pm. Not at a stretch but with a lecture inbetween and a small lunch break. I listened to my favourite tracks as I worked on my circuit and work went well. However, I was dismayed to find my PCB not working. Maybe, I worked hard but in the wrong direction. Well, it was a good day's work anyway. I returned home by 17:00 and had dinner, read a bit and slept.

Tuesday(20th Feb)
I went to Uni with a new resolve and set to work on my project again. I had scheduled a meeting with my group members at 10:00. I had a thorough discussion about each members objectives and their progress. Things looked good with each of them except for mine. I was the project leader so it was a bit embarassing but hey..every one has his/her bad day. I then left for a lecture and got engrossed with the professor's head. The shine on the bald head(top) was a constant distraction and I soon lost what he was trying to say. I just copied what he wrote on the board while I thought about cracking a head on the prof's head. What will crack first? The egg or his head?
The day ended with me in the lab again with my head restin on my hands and my PCB looking kaput. The evening began on a good note with a football game on TV. Arsenal v PSV Eindhowen, Champions League. I had to leave midway for my friend's treat. The treat was for him getting an internship in Corus(steel company). We had a jolly good time, by jove with my first pint of Carling. It was yuck and bitter. I will never have it again. I couldn't really refuse the drink as I thought I would give it a shot. I felt a bit tipsy...yeah I know 1 pint n all...but couldnt help it. Once I was out of Bar One and walking I felt better. I think I laughed a lot and when I say lot, I mean a LOT! A few friends of mine imitated some profs and a few characters..it was hilarious. I couldn't stop. I slept at around 1am and had a good sleep.

Wednesday(21st Feb)
I had a lecture at 9 am, so I had to get up early and rush. I missed breakfast and reached the lecture theater just in time. It was a 2 hr lecture but finished in 1 and a half so I could go to the IT Centre and check my email. I shall fastforward to 1pm when I had my weekly project meeting with my supervisor. It was a rude wake up call with the supervisors telling me to start showing some results and get something ready for testing. This basically meant that I had to get my PCB(sorry..PCB- Printed Circuit Board) working properly. I also had to build two more circuits and so I had a loooooong way to go. And with only 3 and half weeks left, I was in deep shit and it was smelling bad. I was quite disheartened actually and I suddenly felt under severe pressure. The meeting ended at 2pm sharp as my supervisors had to rush off to an examiners meeting.
I made my way to the IT Centre and checked my email. I saw that Citigroup, the company I had an interview with the week before had sent an email. "We at Citigroup were impressed with your achievements and activities. However, there was a stiff competition and it was impossible to choose everyone. It is regret that we inform you that you have not been successful this time. We wish you good luck with your career and future".
That was great, and very touching. They also added that I could call up the next wednesday for feedback. I think I will and find out what went wrong because I thought it went well. I'll be frank and say that I was quite dejected. I was supposed to go for a basketball session with my friends but I ended up going to my room and falling flat on my bed. The rest of the day and evening was the usual. I was chatting with my cousin online and told her about this and how dejected I was. I ended up fighting with her..haha, but apologised later. I was really down.

Thursday(22nd Feb)
I woke up and decided that I am going to make this a good day. I attended lectures, got into the lab. My circuits failed me again and I was clueless. I spoke to a few professors who had no time to meet me. I spoke to a few friends who suggested a few things to do. It helped but not as I expected. Later in the day I went to meet my supervisor to get my exam marks. I thought I had done well, but no..I mean it was not a bad result but it was not a first class. I got a 64.4% overall. But the worst was yet to come. My supervisor told me that my expected grade in my project was 2.2(50-60%). I was shocked..I mean I knew I was struggling but this low!

Friday(23rd Feb)
I was in the lab the whole day. I met one of my supervisors for advice. He had no clue about what to do with the circuit and said that he will have to check the circuit himself. He gave me a few tips of what to do about the other things. I worked till 5.30 pm and was still unsuccessful. Pretty shite. My other supervisor did not have the time to meet me. Not surprised really, I guess thats how the way it is.

Saturday, Sunday
Relaxed and prepared for my interview with another company. Its on wednesday 28th Feb. Lets see. Arsenal FC lost to Chelsea FC in the Carling Cup final played at Cardiff. 1-0 up with Theo Walcott scoring his first in Arsenal colours before succumbing to 2 goals by Didier Drogba. "Football, ..Bloody Hell!" (Sir Alex Fergusson). A sad ending to a bad week.
Self pity? Feeling down? Things not going according to plan? Shit Happens?
Who knows how the next week is going to go....good/bad/so-so?
And then it keeps hitting me...
Shit Happens...Grin, bear the stench and clean it!!